I’ve been quite open about a large part of my life, knowing full well that I am not the only one on a similar journey. Always hoping that what I share here helps another person.
Some parts of my life however, I’ve kept guarded as my intention was to protect. After some time, I’ve discovered that not only does it not protect, but enables the other side to be stronger.
I want you to know, that no matter how tough a journey can be, it’s entirely up to you on the speed of your recovery, the fears to over come and the strength you discover as you take your steps towards a healthier life. Both mentally and physically.
Now as I move forward with my personal truths, I’ll state that while you will hear or read in the news, about abusive behaviour from those in power. This is simply no longer acceptable. Perhaps to some, it seems quite a bit but to someone with my past, it confirms how society has allowed this and it’s time to make a stand. Again, going back to what I said before, we can do something we feel that is protective by not saying a word and enabling or speaking up which is more difficult but braver than we know but ultimately disabling.
In my past life, I endured comments by men who thought were right and actions by men who thought they were entitled. I put up with it, not saying a word as I didn’t see my value. Not only did I not see my value, they didn’t either. It’s taken 4 + years to walk away from that life, 4 + years to recognize my value and 20 + years to see this behaviour was wrong.
I encourage you to not only come out with the truths but to disable those who feel entitled to behave in a way that is not only hurtful but is unhealthy and no longer acceptable. Women have value, women are people and women have rights. Start standing up for them.
Each breath I've been given, each one in, each one out, I am grateful for. This means not only am I alive, however given the opportunity to make a difference in not only my life, but the opportunity to be the difference of anothers.
It's simply a choice, albeit it, some days more difficult as those fears and doubts sneak into my heart or head, make me question things that shouldn't be. These Irrational and hurtful thoughts are nothing but a block in which, most of us deal with daily, even if we choose not to admit it.
That battle, is a seed that was planted by stumbles, in which we thought we were incapable of getting up from. That we felt, it was easier to let the fear pull us down further losing the light that gave us the first bit of inspiration. To let go, fall and forget about our passions.
Or..
The breath that enters our lungs, the sunrise at the beginning of the day and the feeling we get when the day starts again, knowing we have another moment to start over. The hardest step is the one forward, working towards a better today. I'll admit that working towards something can be very hard. However, don't they say that nothing good comes easy.
I ask you, to take every moment that you are given and make something with it. Perhaps not at this moment, but when you are ready. Try. It becomes contagious. Whatever "it" is, give it all you can in this moment. Tomorrow will be easier, I promise. Like taking a walk when you've not done much, each step seems difficult but the next time, it will be easier. You'll become more comfortable, you will believe in yourself a bit more each time.
Before you know it, that change you started will come to fruition.
Believe.
In yourself.
